I think I’ve mentioned it before, my slight obsession with being uncomfortable and chasing growth. Sometimes the uncomfortable undeniably needs to happen on its own, and sometimes you go out chasing it because well it’s exciting and it gets your blood pumping. I feel like we all get to a point where we get stuck in a rut and decide that that rut is ok to settle into. We become constantly tired and drained with no real stimulation. Day in and day out, your normality becomes your prison.
You have to get to a point where that comfort doesn’t serve you anymore. You have to shake off that old tired skin and mentality and f*ck shit up. Whether that’s learning something new, reaching out for a new opportunity (friend or project or both), or going out to wander a new area. You need to get uncomfortable every once in a while to shake out the cobwebs and let in some new light, or dark, in. Sometimes growth can take a dark turn and hurt you, but it’s still growth. The Yin to the Yang, the devil to your angel, the dark to the light, it’s all in the balance of what you need at that moment in your life.
Recently I’ve been getting more uncomfortable, speaking my truth (blunt bitchiness and kindhearted unloading), investing in not holding things in and even got time in front of the camera with my friend and fellow photographer Andrew Barber. If you know me, you know I’m not a fan of being in front of the camera, it’s cringe worthy and has made me physically ill, with that being said… I’m sorry clients that hate it as well, but I try and make it fun for you, right?
Anywho back to the shoot… it was fun, uncomfortable (in all the good ways) and the results have been astonishing (which is no surprise when you work with a talented photographer, please check his work out and give him a follow!). I felt great and although going into it I was nervous as heck, I held my head high and made some shit happen. I learned a lot from it as well. I had asked Andrew for some posing mentoring and he was an amazing source of information. “Posing” me like I knew what I was doing, which I most certainly did not. He was a gentleman and patient, gave me a pep talk when I needed it and a kick in the arse when I needed to get out of my head.
“You’re fine, and you’re doing great,” she said before winking and phasing back into me.
That brings me to my next point in this uncomfortable post: what you perceive as uncomfortable and life altering, others can see as strength, inner beauty and inspiration. I’m not saying I inspired Andrew, but with this share I hope to inspire some people into taking at step in growth. I believe our voices and actions can give others strength, as well as yourself to do more of it. While Andrew captured some beautiful imagery, I still felt like a made up awkward blob. My eyes heavy with false lashes, my hair ‘naturally’ wavvy and big around a face that was covered in a well placed mask of make up and dramatic eyeliner. This bit of armor made me feel comfortable enough to look at the camera, which at one point I could see myself in the lens… and boy, that reflection took a nice hold of me and shook me up. “You’re fine, and you’re doing great,” she said before winking and phasing back into me.
So where ever you are in life, whether its in the throws of your own uncomfort or needing to make the jump. Do it! There is no growth in the mundane, so shed a skin and get uncomfortable, because that’s where the magic happens.
“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways and truer answers.”
-M. Scott Peck
Photography by Andrew Barber